… I don’t appreciate being wrapped up in my families personal dramas. It instills great waves of anguish about the way I was treated the first time I was diagnosed with a mental health problem and to see them close ranks on someone else who really needs help leaves a bad feeling in my gut. Also I feel helpless as I know if I reach out to this person I would be deemed as taking sides.
Fortunately I moved a hundred miles away from the city they live in and their ‘issues’ a year ago and am afforded some protection but it doesn’t help the tension and the fact I’m back on the clomazpam. I had done really well to get off it this summer and I feel it’s falling apart a bit.
All I can do is breathe, breathe … In and out ….
I don’t if anyone else has such issues with family dynamics? It really messes with my flow.