Still Standing

Well it hasn’t been a great time but I’m winning the pneumonia battle and depression by going off piste and taking 5htp and rescue remedy. Despite all the warnings not to mix herbal remedies with prescription I’ve had no contradictions and it sure beats Prozac or mirtazapine.

This weekend I’m traveling back to London to meet family and friends. I’m really looking forward to it as I find it hard to make friends irl even after living in this town over 3 years I’ve yet to make a firm friend. A Bi polar meltdown here and there hasn’t helped.

The only question is when I take my AS back injection medicine. It will kill my immune system and I’m not quite over the Pneumonia but I can feel my back and shoulder starting to lock up. So many conditions, slow little time 🙂

So that’s my life, the up side is my immediate family is awesome and my paranoia was unfounded bar one person who fortunately I’m getting some special therapy to deal with.

Bless you all, especially the recent positive comments.

Peace D

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Will I Make March

My personal plan with WordPress expires in March 2019 and I’ve already had the hassling emails about price increases etc (well technically you now have to pay for the domain on top of the plan, which in my books is basically a price increase).

So though I may have 200 followers, only 20 odd are active and I’m not sure I want to fork out that amount to continuously spout bad Poetry from the mouth of a bipolary. If there’s a free plan I can default to in March I’ll stay, if not we’ll I guess my Web page precence that first started in 1999 comes to an end. To think I once live streamed to 60,000 music fans. How the world turns.

Will I miss it. Probably not. I have made something more precious than net infamy, something that can’t be quantified or packaged and sold. Nor will I let it be indexed here.

{Third week without a cigarette to}

Peace D

Bullet Bipolar Tales

I’m the shell shocked lover with a bullet ridden mind,

A labyrinthine tale of woe and highs you’ll ever find.

Don’t hold me tight in the night I may just explode,

Or fall to pieces slowly over the years I reaped then sowed.

So I don’t know if you can hear over this plane crash,

Maybe you shouldn’t hang around while I burn and flash.

I could say I love you but I’m not sure which voice said it,

I feel it coming again but you and me baby are a tight fit, will we split… Or fight these mindless demons and stick!

D August 2018